Mid-night Oil
Realised I haven't written in a looooong time, even though the last entry was just in May. Because tons happened.
Writing this one day after my maticulation in NUS. There's lots to tell before reaching this point in time. It was only these couple of weeks that I could really look back on these 6 months of holiday that I've looked forward to all through JC2, and see the big picture. Really I see how God planned, just each and every single thing, every step of the way, and took me the whole way, walked with me, taught me, scolded me, protected me..well, there's no way i can finish this list. Anyway, you get the point.
I'd better start from the very beginning of this year, or rather the very end of last year, to link up. Esp. all the stuff I missed out in the entries for this year, all the things I needed a further perspective to see. OK, I summarise the 'A' level exam period a bit. Guess it was this period of time, I learnt to depend on the Lord more. In fact to depend on Him and need Him such that I don't dare to go anywhere without Him. I know that's good.
Remember all that studying period when I lived at night and slept in the day. I was never lonely, though it does get a bit quiet at night. The Lord was just such great company. Yah, and we watched.....not the sunrise, can't see that from my window, just the whole sky turning from black, to blue, lighter, then bright morning!
It's such a quiet miracle, almost like nobody ever notices it, it's the time when everybody wakes up and starts rushing around to begin yet another busy day. And nobody notices the wonder, of the whole land turning bright, darkness fleeing from light. Yet our beautiful, loving God does it quietly and perfectly everyday, day after day after day. and everytime I see this, I asked the Lord that He would make it light in every heart of every person, just as He does for the land, in a way all of us simply could not do, with all the lamps and fires we have, for hearts or for physical places, in His own perfect way.
Ok! I must stop being so long-winded. But there is this thing I must write. Many times during the prelims and 'A's, I was really quite scared. For these exams, this time, i knew that's it. I might make it. I might not. but the Lord always went with me. Yah, So I made it through.
And there was this night before the prelims econs essay . Somehow that was the scariest paper, I quite studied, but in the early hours, I nearly got so scared I didn't dare to go to school. As in really don't dare to go at all. And I just kept asking the Lord, "Father, go with me", "Father, you must come with me, ok?", repeatedly, repeatedly. Until at some point He just said, (did He sound a little..exasperated? Don't quite remember, but as always, very very loving) "Do you think I would let you go there alone?"
Yah, and then somehow I wasn't so scared. Somehow I managed to make it to the exam hall, do the exam and everything. And I got the best results in Econs essays that I ever got in my 2 years.
Then after the exam, things started to happen and as far as i can see, they never stopped. Actually, I hope and pray that they will never stop. Anyway....next entry.
Writing this one day after my maticulation in NUS. There's lots to tell before reaching this point in time. It was only these couple of weeks that I could really look back on these 6 months of holiday that I've looked forward to all through JC2, and see the big picture. Really I see how God planned, just each and every single thing, every step of the way, and took me the whole way, walked with me, taught me, scolded me, protected me..well, there's no way i can finish this list. Anyway, you get the point.
I'd better start from the very beginning of this year, or rather the very end of last year, to link up. Esp. all the stuff I missed out in the entries for this year, all the things I needed a further perspective to see. OK, I summarise the 'A' level exam period a bit. Guess it was this period of time, I learnt to depend on the Lord more. In fact to depend on Him and need Him such that I don't dare to go anywhere without Him. I know that's good.
Remember all that studying period when I lived at night and slept in the day. I was never lonely, though it does get a bit quiet at night. The Lord was just such great company. Yah, and we watched.....not the sunrise, can't see that from my window, just the whole sky turning from black, to blue, lighter, then bright morning!
It's such a quiet miracle, almost like nobody ever notices it, it's the time when everybody wakes up and starts rushing around to begin yet another busy day. And nobody notices the wonder, of the whole land turning bright, darkness fleeing from light. Yet our beautiful, loving God does it quietly and perfectly everyday, day after day after day. and everytime I see this, I asked the Lord that He would make it light in every heart of every person, just as He does for the land, in a way all of us simply could not do, with all the lamps and fires we have, for hearts or for physical places, in His own perfect way.
Ok! I must stop being so long-winded. But there is this thing I must write. Many times during the prelims and 'A's, I was really quite scared. For these exams, this time, i knew that's it. I might make it. I might not. but the Lord always went with me. Yah, So I made it through.
And there was this night before the prelims econs essay . Somehow that was the scariest paper, I quite studied, but in the early hours, I nearly got so scared I didn't dare to go to school. As in really don't dare to go at all. And I just kept asking the Lord, "Father, go with me", "Father, you must come with me, ok?", repeatedly, repeatedly. Until at some point He just said, (did He sound a little..exasperated? Don't quite remember, but as always, very very loving) "Do you think I would let you go there alone?"
Yah, and then somehow I wasn't so scared. Somehow I managed to make it to the exam hall, do the exam and everything. And I got the best results in Econs essays that I ever got in my 2 years.
Then after the exam, things started to happen and as far as i can see, they never stopped. Actually, I hope and pray that they will never stop. Anyway....next entry.
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