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From primay sch, I was always a sort of compulsive reader. I just read a lot, especially fiction. No junk or anything really bad, just story books. But it got quite bad, a little like a stronghold, because I could waste so much time reading and do little else. (quiet time, homework etc). There were a few times I actually made myself fast from reading.

Anyway, after my 'A's exams, well it was just 'poof' and suddenly, I dun even quite know what happened, anyhow I just don't read like that anymore. One result from this is that I find a lot more time on my hands. And the Lord made sure He made good use of this time. Thank God.

One thing suddenly happened. After all this time, 5 years, I never figured out why or how, but I did figure since the Lord chose to plan it this way, it must work really well somehow. I can go to church!

Dun really know what happened, only this. I told myself I'll ask my dad again whether I can go to church after 'A's. Only this time, dunno why, I didn't ask, "Can I go to church?" as I usually did. I just said, " I'm going to church on Sunday with my friends."

And he looked at me. he didn't say anything. The look in his eyes said a very pained, reluctant yes. It was a lot of pain and reluctance in the yes. If not for the Lord, I should probably have submitted to this pain. I love my dad. I don't want to ...wish I don't have to hurt him. But in a way, if you choose to look at it this way, I chose at that moment to hurt him. It was all too important to me. And I did really think and I still do that this would be the best thing to do, for everyone, so I put down the pain and reluctance, held on to the yes, turned and walked away.

Yah, and from then on, I could go to church. Anyway, too many things that weren't supposed to get into this book got in, a lot of happenings. Anyway, too many things happened and I did learn a lot from all of them.

Now I'm going to get on properly with this year.