Big, big world

Remember there was this time I told the Lord I can't take it anymore. I can't cope with my whole life. My whole world keeps getting bigger, as I get to see more and more very different things, people, ways things work, how diverse and complex everything really is, and I'm just small me. I just can't quite take it.

And it was the same period of time God seemed bigger and bigger to me. Not that He changed, just that my perception of Him got bigger as He taught me about Himself. His awesomeness qutie overwhelms me.

And with both these 'bigger' processes going on at the same time in my life, I just can't stomach it.

And the Lord told me, that's exactly how things are supposed to work. Not that I'm supposed to see my world getting bigger and be stressed, see God even bigger and be even more stressed, but that as I know that my world is too big for me to cope with, my God is bgiger than all things and will take care of me. My God let me perception of both the world and Himself grow bigger, in a way to let things get out of hand, so I'll learn to depend on Him instead of myself to cope with everything.