2 weeks
Some updates for these few weeks.
2 weeks ago
Got more things to do in school, partly because the form teacher decided to let me take a few more lessons, partly cos nearly exams so a lot of revision to do. Somehow there was always something to keep me busy til late this week. Beginning to feel the stretch of having a job, and ministry, and friends, etc etc. Beginning to crave free time again cos haven't had much, partly i volunteered to do certain things lah, and they happen to happen together. One more thing, must meet up with my girls soon. Haven't been spending time with God, go home just sleep. It's amazing He's so faithful tho I'm so unfaithful!
Sat felt terrible. Din have time to prepare worship til Thu night, but was so tired fell asleep. Fri night had to stay up to do it, til late, but all messy, dun really noe wat I'm doing, not sure kind. And then Sat had to go sch at 7.30am for oral. Oral was quite fun, but later really really din feel up to leading worship. Complained and groaned to Huili, hope I din scare her. She volunteered to play guitar for me tho I could tell she was a little nervous to do it on the spot without practice. Still she did it, and it was good! Helped me to focus a lot. Din noe guitar take off so much focus before, maybe it's good i found out. Next time will ask Huili play again.
Last week
Feel going to fall sick. Have been trying hard to postpone it.
PSLE marking days, no one in sch. Supposed to go library to stocktake. Student helpers who were to come hardly did, and were not very hardworking. The books were heavy, but it was good that it was quiet. But the dust... In the end din finish as many books as the teacher in charge expected, she was disappointed. Because fell sick messed up all my schedule, in the end this week became really packed too. Think I'm getting more and more short-tempered. Must watch out. Had conflict with the quietest and noisiest pple in cell within one week! Some record. I discovered I always have conflicts with pple when I work with them, maybe it's just me.
Sunday was ...out. As in me out. Woke up late for SOL ... on purpose. But in the end it was a good break, really needed it. Like a sabbath. Really had time to just spend time with God. Not have to ask Him for a word cos need to share kind, or desperate dunno wat to do for something kind, just sat down and can be quiet before Him. Felt more alive. These few weeks had felt ... a little dried up like that, usually I love to sing, but this period ... jsut can't sing, can't think of any song to sing, dun feel like singing. Like they call no song in ur heart. But when I can really sit at His feet, then suddenly all the tunes came back. Spontaneously.
This week
Just began. Exam week quite eng2. But got lots of meetings to attend. Marking. Had terrible sleep last night, this terrible tune keep coming into my head, and I was too sleepy to object very violently. The dumb chanting tune that they always sing during assembly every monday. It's the worst thing of all. The whole afternoon like fighting like that. Once I stop praying the tune comes back. Then night the tune haunted me all night couldn't sleep properly, already not enough sleep already now worse. Brought my sis's CDplayer out, need to hear some positive tunes. Now everyday go sch, esp monday, must commit all my thoughts to the Lord, ask Him to guard my mind, every single thought. Ask Him to put like a filter, thoughts that honor Him then can come in, other thoughts all no entry. Talk abt whose voice r u hearing... bbrrr.... One of the christian teachers, she actually sings the tune with the rest, although she doesn't bow down with them. Well, I'm certainly never doing that. Ggrrhhh.....
Time for class.
2 weeks ago
Got more things to do in school, partly because the form teacher decided to let me take a few more lessons, partly cos nearly exams so a lot of revision to do. Somehow there was always something to keep me busy til late this week. Beginning to feel the stretch of having a job, and ministry, and friends, etc etc. Beginning to crave free time again cos haven't had much, partly i volunteered to do certain things lah, and they happen to happen together. One more thing, must meet up with my girls soon. Haven't been spending time with God, go home just sleep. It's amazing He's so faithful tho I'm so unfaithful!
Sat felt terrible. Din have time to prepare worship til Thu night, but was so tired fell asleep. Fri night had to stay up to do it, til late, but all messy, dun really noe wat I'm doing, not sure kind. And then Sat had to go sch at 7.30am for oral. Oral was quite fun, but later really really din feel up to leading worship. Complained and groaned to Huili, hope I din scare her. She volunteered to play guitar for me tho I could tell she was a little nervous to do it on the spot without practice. Still she did it, and it was good! Helped me to focus a lot. Din noe guitar take off so much focus before, maybe it's good i found out. Next time will ask Huili play again.
Last week
Feel going to fall sick. Have been trying hard to postpone it.
PSLE marking days, no one in sch. Supposed to go library to stocktake. Student helpers who were to come hardly did, and were not very hardworking. The books were heavy, but it was good that it was quiet. But the dust... In the end din finish as many books as the teacher in charge expected, she was disappointed. Because fell sick messed up all my schedule, in the end this week became really packed too. Think I'm getting more and more short-tempered. Must watch out. Had conflict with the quietest and noisiest pple in cell within one week! Some record. I discovered I always have conflicts with pple when I work with them, maybe it's just me.
Sunday was ...out. As in me out. Woke up late for SOL ... on purpose. But in the end it was a good break, really needed it. Like a sabbath. Really had time to just spend time with God. Not have to ask Him for a word cos need to share kind, or desperate dunno wat to do for something kind, just sat down and can be quiet before Him. Felt more alive. These few weeks had felt ... a little dried up like that, usually I love to sing, but this period ... jsut can't sing, can't think of any song to sing, dun feel like singing. Like they call no song in ur heart. But when I can really sit at His feet, then suddenly all the tunes came back. Spontaneously.
This week
Just began. Exam week quite eng2. But got lots of meetings to attend. Marking. Had terrible sleep last night, this terrible tune keep coming into my head, and I was too sleepy to object very violently. The dumb chanting tune that they always sing during assembly every monday. It's the worst thing of all. The whole afternoon like fighting like that. Once I stop praying the tune comes back. Then night the tune haunted me all night couldn't sleep properly, already not enough sleep already now worse. Brought my sis's CDplayer out, need to hear some positive tunes. Now everyday go sch, esp monday, must commit all my thoughts to the Lord, ask Him to guard my mind, every single thought. Ask Him to put like a filter, thoughts that honor Him then can come in, other thoughts all no entry. Talk abt whose voice r u hearing... bbrrr.... One of the christian teachers, she actually sings the tune with the rest, although she doesn't bow down with them. Well, I'm certainly never doing that. Ggrrhhh.....
Time for class.
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