The normal smart thing to do is to give up. But the Lord never said always to do the normal smart thing. And the thing He said to do... Sigh

Why is giving up so hard? haiz... perhaps because I'm not convinced that I should give up. And the surprising thing is the person who seemed to have made it harder for me to give up is the Lord! Sigh... double sigh...

I realise not everyone has a conscience just because they call themselves Christians. At least, it doesn't seem to be the same type of
conscience.

I'm the fool here. Why am I so stupid? Because I'm vulnerable, that's a fact. To look at the circumstances, I'm a complete fool lah. Only... Somebody said...

Sometimes I think, if I could be 14 again, would I do some things differently. Well, there are things I'm sure I won't want to do differently, but
also things I definitely will. My new motto should be, don't live to regret it. But people usually realise this only too late... just like me.

I shall work hard so as not to kill myself, but whether I succeed will depend. Whether I need to do it in the first place... I shall not think about
that... that will counter my efforts.

How come I think only already got so much "scolding", people look so 乖guai1 do so much nonsense like nothing like that... really feel like
saying "unfair"...

Well, there's only two possible outcomes, neither of which will be improved by my trying to “插一脚” (in hokkien)

Somebody is hoping I'll clear the mess they made, by doing and saying nothing. Well, too bad, I won't. They can jolly well clear it themselves.
I'll be waiting.

I tried to give the benefit of the doubt that it was work. Well, it wasn't. At least not the majority of it.

This is too tiring. Forget it. Imagine doing this for life!

Have you ever been very tired, but cannot sleep?

Both my laptop and my phone are part of a growing group in S'pore - the aging population. Both passed shelf life already...

I met someone who managed to challenge all the little assumptions I never knew I had. I'm amazed! It's very interesting from the meta-cognitive
point of view. "yar manz!"

The increasing pile of "Living Life" devotionals stacked on my bedside remind me how fast the months are passing...

To the kids, I know everything. I wish I was as knowledgeable about my own life as I seem to be about theirs.

But just like I can't quite explain to kids how I know so many things, the "Adult" in my life just keeps saying, "Trust Me".

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." HOPE and a FUTURE.
Hope and a future. Hope and a future. Hope and a future.

In a movie, everything goes so quickly: the happiness, the sadness, the terror, the relief, and everything in between. In real life, you don't get to speed up like that. You go through everything slowly: the joys, yes, but also the anxieties, the unknown, the disappointments... and you just wait. You just have to wait.

"You love those who hate you, and hate those who love you."

I'm considering the extent to which I should be evil... because sometimes it can be embarrassing to be caught being evil.

I wish I could be like those teenagers, so free, can have a live conversation via fb comments, 15 comments in 12 mins.

I confess that I'm waiting.

If you want to think about something, you don't need any reminders.

What's the first thing you do when you get home?

It seems I usually get whatever I asked for myself. Can't think of any significant exceptions... is that scary?

I kind of asked for it, and got it. I shouldn't complain, seriously. Should I have asked for more? But then would more be good for me? I wouldn't
know.

I'm stunned by the depth and detailness of the analogies of His love that God created in nature and in mankind.

I'm beginning to hate this thing called SMS. It might be a worse invention than the snooze button. And I had always thought sms was a great invention...

I can't believe I'm doing this. Can't believe myself. Lord, did You ever kind of "can't believe" that You're doing such things as You did for such people like me? I wonder...

I'm turning into a monster, I believe.

Ya, it's nicer to just be me. I shall be me. Regardless of what people think, whether it looks stupid, whether it IS stupid. As long as it isn't unethical, immoral, unbiblical. Even if it's illogical, insensible, abnormal. I shall be me. It's easier that way.

Normalising takes place. Returning to the norm, or perhaps, finding a norm. Who knows? Is that normal? Ha.

I seem to have made a decision. Abeit I can't figure when the decision point was. My brain seems to have noted and understood the decision, and acted accordingly.

Human beings are greedy. I am greedy. I am a human being.

God's not in a hurry.... but I am! God's not in a hurry... God's not in a hurry... so I mustn't be in a hurry... God's not in a hurry ... so I'm not in a hurry... like real.

My patience (or rather lack thereof) is ultimate.

I'm nuts.

I just discovered I've developed Monday Blue Syndrome type II. Can you believe it? This is crazy.

The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure.

I feel so tempted to turn to the last page of the story and find out the ending first. But in real life, you're not allowed to do that.

For the first time in my life, I am actually waiting for the holidays to end. Life is full of surprises!
The number of things I guessed wrongly about myself is increasing... both for better and for worse.

No more cholate for the next 2 weeks

Making dumplings next week!

What if everyone told you something was stressful, and you still wanted it? And you kind of got it, and it really was very stressful, and you still wanted it? Such is life...
human beings are weird.